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25 October 2008

This Time of Year

It's that time of year when thousands of apparently sane people take leave of their senses and their regular schedules to devote themselves to writing a novel in one month.

You can read more about the NaNoWriMo craziness on this website.

And, yes, I'll be participating for the third year, writing my third novel.

See you in December.

23 October 2008

Paradoxical Perspective

When it comes to the book I am writing on early infant loss, I have a paradoxical perspective.

I still optimistically believe it is possible to finish this month. At the same time, I realistically recognize the sheer improbability of that.

My optimism is rooted in proof. Repeatedly in my past, God has enabled me to accomplish what seemed to be impossible goals.

The most difficult aspect of writing the book has been its organization, and this morning I made significant organizational progress. One of many other difficulties has been concern over what readers will think about what I write.

I need to stop thinking about others' perceptions, trust in God's continued providence, and concentrate on writing what is true.

22 October 2008

Comfort Scripture

For meal time devotions, we recently finished reading Revelation and would have continued our regular practice of reading straight through the Bible by beginning again in Genesis. But, much as I love the story of creation, I just didn't want to confront the fall of mankind during the gray days of winter.

I felt that, just as certain times in life seem to call for comfort food, the gray days of winter call for comfort scripture.

And the Psalms certainly qualify as comfort scripture. We decided to take a side trip through the Psalms this winter.

We are trying to ingrain the Psalms more into our minds so that we can pray their words back to God now (when we don't have a Bible with us and in the dark watches of the night) and later (when we are old and may not be able to read a Bible).

I've been going over the words of Psalm 16 this week.

It begins with a beautiful prayer:
"Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust" (verse 1).

In light of the recent media hype about the financial crisis, the center section seems particularly appropriate:
"O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You maintain my lot.
The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Yes, I have a good inheritance.
I will bless the LORD who has given me counsel;
My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
I have set the LORD always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved" (verses 5-8).

Verse 10 is obviously a prophetic reference to Christ:
"For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption."

Matthew Henry reminds me that Peter quotes verses 8-11 from this Psalm in his Pentecost sermon (Acts 2:25-31). Henry also notes how believers share in some aspects of this Messianic prophecy: "And Christ being the Head of the body, the church, these verses may be applied to all Christians, guided and animated by the Spirit of Christ; and we may hence learn, that it is our wisdom and duty to set the Lord always before us.... Christ's resurrection is an earnest of the believer's resurrection. In this world sorrow is our lot, but in heaven there is joy, a fulness of joy; our pleasures here are for a moment, but those at God's right hand are pleasures for evermore."

And so I pray:
"You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore" (verse 11).

07 October 2008

Until We Reach Home: A Book Review

Until We Reach Home by Lynn Austin
Bethany House Publishers; paperback; 428 pages © 2008

In Until We Reach Home, Christy Award winning author Lynn Austin has created another page turner peopled with believable characters experiencing authentic conflict in realistic settings.

The reader comes to know and care deeply about Swedish sisters Erin, Kirsten, and Sofia as they interact among themselves and with others along their corporate journey to America and their individual journeys to maturity.

One of the most enjoyable scenes is the way a young German man in detention on Ellis Island transcends speech barriers with Sofia through the universal language of scripture. Using his German Bible, he finds verses that describe what he wishes to convey and points her to the corresponding texts in her Swedish Bible. Austin’s use of scripture here evidences the natural familiarity of someone who regularly spends time in God’s Word, unlike some authors who might have implemented a concordance and forced obscure passages to fit the story.

This immigrant story touches a common chord with humanity and rings true for the many Americans who have their heard their own family stories of troubled travel and adjustment to the “New Country.”

Austin goes beyond the typical immigrant tale to open readers’ eyes and hearts to the unique trials experienced by single young women. She credibly portrays the young women’s differing personalities and their inner struggles with anxiety, fear, and—finally—faith.

Faith is the foundation that turns a house into a home. The yearning, guilt-plagued, lonely heart finds rest, forgiveness, and fulfillment in Christ. God is sovereign over all events and works through them for the good of those who love him. These are the underlying themes that echo through the pages of Until We Reach Home.

This novel is highly recommended for personal reading and for placement in church libraries.

03 October 2008

Puppy Love


A Yorky-poo puppy named Libby shares my days.

I suppose I could say, “I own a puppy,” or “I have a puppy,” but saying she “shares my days” more accurately reflects reality.

She often gets me up from my chair, she frequently gets me out through the door, and she often gets me thinking throughout the day.

Sometimes the thing she gets me thinking is, “What was I thinking?”

You see, I’m a writer. And a writer needs large blocks of uninterrupted time for concentration and contemplation. Writing takes focus. And—as my wise second son told me—pets take a lot of focus. Although our four children had many pets when they were growing up, I didn’t really understand the level of focus required for taking care of and training a puppy until Libby came to live.

So you can understand why there are many days—sometimes several times a day—when I ask myself, “Why did I ever get a puppy? What was I thinking?”

Libby is able to sleep on my lap for lengthy stretches, but she often stands up and begins licking my face, which means, “I need to go out right now!” This is inevitably when I am in the middle of a sentence that seems to be going somewhere significant.

At times she will be content to worry a chew toy or tear the fiberfill out of a stuffed toy on the floor of my office, but before long she will jump up and down batting my thigh with her two front paws in her best “Timmy fell down the well” Lassie imitation.

This could mean, “I’m hungry,” or “I’m thirsty,” or “I’m bored and I want you to play with me,” but it could also mean, “I need to go out right now!” If it were any of the first three, one could wait a few minutes, but with a puppy one never knows—it could have the last meaning, and a puppy who weighs only four and a half pounds is bound to have a miniscule bladder with which one wouldn’t want to take chances.

Then there’s also the fact that I have to travel quite often for work. What to do with Libby when I travel? I don’t want to board her in a commercial kennel that won’t give her individual attention and training that is consistent with what I provide. She is very good about ringing her little bell beside the door before we go outside; she obligingly runs up the open stairway so I don’t even have to lean down to put on or take off her leash. And—this is the best part—she knows I’m busy and can’t spend a lot of time fooling around, so when we go outside, she almost always gets right down to business. I don’t want her to lose any of those important gains while being confined to a boarder’s kennel. And I don’t want her exposed to bad habits, bad dogs, or bad germs. Am I a bit overprotective? Possibly. I hope my kids aren’t reading this.

My daughter, who has Libby’s sister from an earlier litter, is willing to take Libby for short term stays, but I don’t want to impose on her and her husband’s good graces too often or for too long. And having both dogs can be a little chaotic since the two “play” fiercely when they’re together. And they sometimes distract each other from obeying commands. As my husband says, “When you have one dog, you have a pet; when you have two dogs, you have two dogs.”

Since Libby is just a puppy, she does puppy things. She will occasionally leave puppy spoor on the carpet. She will occasionally further shred worn carpet edges (it’s needed replacing for years, but we haven’t been able to afford new carpet and now I’m thinking we might as well wait a little longer). In short, I can’t trust that when I think she’s innocently dozing in the sun by the sliding glass door that she will, in fact, be doing only that. Even when I’m not trying to write, I have to always think about her and make sure I have her location pinned in my mind. In some ways, it’s almost worse than a child.

But in other ways, it’s better than a child. I can put Libby in her crate when I have to leave home. I can put Libby in her crate when I’m tired of her distractions and think it’s time for her to take a nice long nap. Try doing that with a child and it won’t be long before child protection service knocks on your door!

Other than getting put in her crate sometimes when she’d rather run free, Libby has a pretty good life. She snoozes on a fat lap most of the day. She goes outside as often as she likes to do her thing and chase bugs. She eats healthy small bites puppy food (veterinary approved!) at a whopping $13.00 for a five-pound bag. (That’s a whole lot more than I’d pay for a five-pound bag of sugar.) She gets regular baths, regular ear cleaning, regular hair combing, regular trips to the groomers, and regular trips to the vet.

But I’m beginning to see ways that Libby is good for me. She gets me off my seat and outside regularly every day. While she sniffs around in the grass and does her business, I sniff the fresh air and watch the dawning sun gild the edges of quivering cottonwood leaves or find a female redstart flitting about in the shrubbery or see the sun glint on the white head of a bald eagle soaring high in the blue sky. Almost every time I pause to enjoy and thank God for the moment, I find new creative thoughts crowding into my mind. And I am blessed.

I’m not only blessed by regularly enjoying the beauty of God’s creation and receiving his gifts of creativity, but I’m also blessed by an important lesson I’m learning from Libby. No matter how we treat her or how often we put her in her crate, she loves us with her whole puppy personality. She is always thrilled to see us and likes nothing better than spending time with us. She particularly loves exposed or sweaty skin. My husband says she can’t control her licker (which is much funnier when it’s spoken).

Libby is a visual aid lesson in unconditional love.

That lesson reminds me of this bizarre joke my brother-in-law told:
How can you tell if your wife or your dog loves you more?
Put them both in the trunk of your car and drive around for an hour. Then let them out and see which one is happy to see you.

Like all outlandish jokes, it’s funny because of its underlying truth.

Few creatures demonstrate unconditional love as well as a puppy.

02 October 2008

Flame Maple

When I drive down our road, I can see the the varied green of the woods now has distinct definitions of color as the leaves of individual trees begin to change. There are no golds or rusts yet, but various greens are now tinged with yellow and pink and brown.


Many leaves of the maple in our front yard are tipped with scarlet. It's almost as if someone spraypainted one side and the top of it with red paint.


This is a beautiful tree, bred for its showy fall color and aptly named "Flame Maple." The leaves change; and if we're blessed, they hang on the tree for a few days. Sometimes the wind looses their fragile hold almost as soon as the color changes. Here's a picture from a couple of years ago of it at its peak:
Many years ago, it inspired me to write this poem:


Flame Maple


Bare winter branches float against
a sullen sky in bitter world;
the shadowed, ashen haze recalls
an ancient promise from
a smoldering fire-pot.

The springtime tree is kindled by
a blaze of bursting scarlet buds,
while blood-red petals bless the ground.
It seems a bush ablaze
with unconsuming fire.

Its summer green conceals bright fire
within a pillared cloud of leaves
providing wanderers with peace
and rest that’s only found
in providential shade.

The autumn sun that melts first frost
glows red within translucent leaves,
transformed with heaven’s instant fire,
like blazing answer to
a righteous prophet's prayer.

A fresh, new gale has fully come
fulfilling promises of old,
with rushing of its mighty wind;
it whirls the flaming leaves
like pentecostal tongues.



© Glenda Mathes

01 October 2008

New Schedule

Considering the projects that confront me over the next two months has led me to adopt a new writing schedule: fiction manuscripts and non-fiction book commitment in the morning, income-generating work in the afternoon, and volunteer work and homemaking in the evenings.

Will it work?

We shall see.